I’ve been quiet on here lately because a lot has been happening in my life and I never quite know how to share all that I’m going through.
I guess you could say that 2021 was a life-altering year. It’s been one of the most painful periods of my life. Some things I saw coming but had no control over and others that were a surprise. And yet what I’m learning as I age, is how to let these experiences shape me instead of destroying me.
And as soon as my life was falling apart at the seams, I immediately asked myself, “How can I grow from this?”
I knew that I couldn’t waste this opportunity to see all the things that led to these moments.
- The places I wasn’t being honest with myself.
- The things I was allowing in my life that didn’t serve me.
- The fears that have been holding me back and keeping me small.
- My lack of boundaries in relationships.
- The things I was settling for because I didn’t believe I deserved more.
This year has been filled with deep, agonizing grief. AND some incredible healing. Healing on like another level. I have had intense visions and experiences in meditations, with psychedelic medicine, with nature.
And I have experienced the return of my passion, my desire and love for myself. I really never knew what it meant to love yourself until just recently. This only happened because I choose to sit in the pain and see what there was to see and to know what there was to know.
And more importantly to FEEL what there was to FEEL.
The journey to this place has been so hard but so worth it. I know I won’t avoid more pain in the future but now I feel certain that not only can I handle what’s coming but that it will continue to shape me into the woman I am meant to become.
Thank you for bearing witness to all that is unfolding.